Running

I have been doing a bit of running lately, I'm trying to get in shape for a Tennis Tournament i'm going to be in, in St. George. I'm so excited, when I play tennis I feel alive. There is something so great about hitting a ball as hard as you can at your opponent that feels so good. Whoow!! So I need to stay motivated to continue to work out and run and find time with my sweet children to play tennis. So if I tell all of you I hopefully will keep it up and be ready for my tournament to kick butt!!

My little bro. is coming home from his mission, in 2 1/2 weeks. I'm so excited it will be so fun. I'm right out gitty about it. I can't wait for Nov. 4th to come. He is such a huge part of our family, for 2 years, 2 of our family members have been gone fulfilling there missions, when my mom left it felt extra empty cause Casey was still on his mission. My two sisters are great but not enough (sorry girls I know you feel the same way, love you) So to have Casey come home will be so nice it will be one more person to lean on when times are hard and he can lean on all of us. Siblings are so great. If you think about it we are with Siblings the longest, our parents die before us, we die before our children, we don't meet our husbands untill we are older. Our siblings are born around the same time we are and they hopefully grow old with us. I love all my Siblings. So I thought I would list some of the reasons I love Casey so much and what makes him so great.
1. His laugh is infectious
2. He is so funny, and has the greatest since of humor.
3. He loves the simpsons, I miss hearing him laugh at the T.V. in the other room. ha
4.He plays the piano beatifully
5. He is so responsible
6. He is so mature and always has been, he is a very old spirit
7, Casey always knows what to say when I'm upset, to help me with a problem.
8. He is very sensitive, he loved and loves my mom and was and is the perfect son in every way.
9. All of his nieces and nephews love him to death, because they know he loves them.
10. Casey is a wonderful missionary, he has done so many wonderful things on his mission. He has worked hard the served the Lord well. And he kept serving his mission even when he new his mom was going to pass away. He is the strongest person I know. I love him!!

(These are very old pictures, he was only 18 her and he is 21 now)

Late night movie

I watched a movie tonight in the dark by myself. It was called P.S I love you. It was a good movie for those of us who don't know about the horribleness of losing a dear dear loved one. The movie is about a women who looses her husband to cancer, while he is dying and knows he won't be there any more he wrights letters and does things so that his absence won't be so unbearable. Even though this movie was about a married couple, I couldn't help but relate it to my own life and my own personal loss. My mom didn't leave any of us kids letters or anything. It makes me sad, really sad almost mad!! I think about what that would have meant to me to have some words of wisdom from her to look back on and remember how much she loves me. Part of this is easy to understand, while my mom was sick and we were worried it might take her life, our families couping mechanism was to keep pushing, looking for the miracle that would save her. We never let her give up and we never lost our faith untill the bitter end. So really we didn't have time, she didn't have time she was trying to stay alive for all of us, I think she knew she was maybe going to pass on to the next life, but she never wanted to let us see she had given up. So thanks for listening, I think I know now why she didn't write us letters. She was to busy fighting for all of us kids and our dad and her family to stay alive. I know she loves me so much, she loved me so much that she was fighting to stay in this life even though she wanted to give up I know many times. So thanks mom for wanting to stay with me and live. I know that Heavenly Father had different plans for you and our family. (This is one of my Blog therapy sessions, I don't mean to be all sad and depressing, it helps to write all this down!!)

When we got our family pictures done, Ben and I went off with the Photographer and took some sappy pictures. I love seeing us together, loving one another. You tend to forget with all the craziness how much each of you mean to one another. I love Ben and he is a wonderful husband and a great father!!

Our new family pictues

We got some professional pictures done a couple of weeks ago. I love my kids so much, they are so adorable. My Caden is getting so big and Blake has lost that all his baby fat in his face. My Brynlee has the most beautiful eyes, wow, what a cutie!!